Suicide Note

Sometimes as I'm sitting here
And the tears run unchecked down my face
and my thoughts run through, my head is racing
and the things I think about ring too true

And sometimes as I'm watching stars
Twinkle in the sky I wonder why
I'm still sitting here, why I'm still alive

Wouldn't it be somethin' else to die
Would anyone care enough to cry
Am I even brave enough to try
and I just sit here thinking to myself

And that razor is so inviting
and that ledge is so warm
I can see myself happy and suning
on the 'night's plutonian shore'

Don't think there's somethin' wrong with me!
Don't tell me I need help
You don't understand me
You don't know what I'm about

You haven't seen the things i have!
You don't know where I've been
So before you tell me how to feel
Perhaps you should try and look IN-to the life I'm living
and not AT the life that I've got
It's nature's to give
and mine to not live

My time on this earth was intolerable
and my mark isn't blazed or engraved
I don't want it to remain
When I dissapear off the face of the earth
Only the dust will remember my name

                                                              -Jan 9th 2004